A few short words over the weekend. Went to see Lastdayhere on Sat. They played with Delain and another band. I managed to not see a second of Delain which makes me happy cause I don’t like their music so much. Also went the afterparty in Stairways, which was fun. Felt a bit like I should have brought my sunglasses cause there were people I really dont know that took photo’s of me. And this did not stop when I left the party at 3.30 ish. Im not used to experience this in The Netherlands.

In the bus home, (dont drink and drive! ;) ) we got delayed due some marroccan guys of maybe age 16 if they werent younger that found it highly needed to play extremely loud (and very bad quality) music. Bus driver warned them not to drive further if they didnt stop with it,but apperantly they didnt care. Im so lucky that those boys seemed to be scared of me all the time. Maybe my leather jacket made impression as well, but when I turned around after standing there for 2 minutes at a busstop telling them to fucking shut the music down, cause I want to go home they bounded in within a couple of seconds and were extremely quiet on the rest of the ride. I had to jump of earlier than them so I hope they behaved after I left as well.

find them under concerts!

Eigensinn and The Mary Major galleries are uploaded! Find them at the concerts! (The Mary Major’s gallery has nr. 2!! nr.1 is from 2007!)

Hehe yesterday I did not blog about my quasi spontaneous action. I went to Germany, Menden to be exactly to see The Mary Major. I knew on forehand that it was there, but with all the stuff going on at the uni and how “great” the Open Flair festival was I did not really feel like driving there. But it was a long time ago that I saw that band, about 1,5 years to be exact. Also, I kind of expected that I might have been tired after the Fink gigs and the Jaya the Cat gig the days before. BUT that was not the case at all. So I woke up that day… hang a bit at my computer, still decideless and I login to MySpace. There I chatted up with my Stefanie who is usually also at The Mary Major gigs. She kinda talked me over the edge and so come I grabbed some food and jumped in the car.
Menden is an interesting place. Drove by the venue when I found it and after that I drove around a bit in the area. Then I decided I needed some benzine so I didnt have to tank in the night, which is always questionable if you find a gasstation thats open at night. Laughed my ass off when some guys came by and honked at me calling me: “Schatze”. (or sth that is spelled similar ;) ) I waved and gave a handkiss. Reminded me a bit to all those nights in Rotterdam when I went to Exit. Cause I always went there quite dressed up. Extraordinary. But well, after that I went looking for some place where I could have dinner and I saw a sign for McDo, but ended up at Burger King. Could have gone to the steakhouse (read: kiosk) as well, but it looked nasty and reminded me to the nasty foodstands in Helsinki.

Went back to the venue, parked my car and walked over there. AC-DC car shows up and I already found Stefanie before we entered. They went drinking on the parking place cause they planned to sleep in the car later on. I didnt drink because I wanted to drive home afterwards. Frist two other bands. Didnt like them. First one was a typical bandcontest-thousands-like-this band. I already forgot their name. It was not extremely bad, but nothing spectacular either. Second band Eigensinn was more relevant. It just aint my type of music, or maybe I should say: Vocals. Instrumental I kind of liked it and I could imagine a sort of guy like Anzi Destruction singing there. Im just not a big fan of female vocals like that. Like that more in industrial or punk.
Last band was The Mary Major. Quite a long set was played and I spend most of my time watching it. I did do some photo’s as well, but as the lights were dramaticly bad and boring I did not really bother to put effort in it. chatted a bit afterwards and then I went home. As soon as I was back on the highway I pumped up the volume a bit. So thanks to the great music of Born from Pain. Soilwork, Kilt. and Turmion Kätilöt I had a great trip home. Quiet roads means basically that you only have to keep your steeringwheel straight. And I had energy enough because of all the gigs of the days before changed my day-night rhytm.

After all its good that I ve been there. A gig in Cologne is on the menu as well, but somehow I have bad vibes over that one. Dont know why. Anyway, a pleasant trip away from the madness here.

BTW. here a photo I did in Rotterdam after I visited the apartment I blogged about. It’s made @ maaskade right in the middle between Erasmusbridge and Willemsbridge. The three buildings and the Ernst & Young building looked so well in the scene that I had to shoot it.

Oh and I have just uploaded the galleries from Eigensinn and The Mary Major so check them out if you want.

I handed in my extra assignment I had to do. I really spend a lot of time on it so it just have to be good. Tsah the teacher told me that he would check on plagiarism. Tsah… what an insult. I write so much, I did so much journalistic stuff… plagiarism would be so dishonourful. I would never ever lower myself to that. but well good luck with the checking on it. I wrote it all myself.
I hope he appreciates my style. Used some chaptertitles with old tv-serie titles. “Toen was geluk nog heel gewoon” (Happiness was still normal by then) for example. I like that sort of things in it. I am aware that not always everyone appreciates this… hahaha I remember I had to give a presentation for managementtraining once. Subject: What could be done better on the school.
I had some story in which I talked about the KKK first. How people thought it was cool to be in that group… playing secret agent and passing on information and them joining KKK more for that than the actual ideology. Cause whatever you say about KKK, communication was there! I said that the uni should take example of this and find a way to float information so extremely well as KKK.

I made that statement with a second idea… I want to let people think about discrimination. As there still is discrimination going on also at the uni. Luckily not too much on KKK ways… but well teachers will know exaclty what I am talking about. They just dont have the guts to admit it. Or say it out loud.
And that bothered me as well.
Anyway… the teacher felt kind of intimidated by my speech. He said that my words were too extreme etc. blahblahblah. FLASHBACK. Already when I was in highschool, blogging elsewhere on a free domain, people often found my words controversial. I guess that is so me.

Also went to the subject that I have to follow because it was NOT on my curricilum. I got an email that said that it was my own fault and I could have known it cause they sended an email about this like 4 years back! NO WAY! cause I never deleted any emails from my uni email. and it is NOT there! but yeah… sth that is not there is no prove. But at least I know they are lying to me. Cause they said it was weird..and it was my fault. BUT I found another person which had the same! So it makes me feel stronger to know that I am NOT the one who was making a mistake. Just another prove to me that they play a dirty game on that school. And whether you uni people read this and find it controversial. Feel free to meet me up in person and get the discussion going!
Anyway to get back to the subject… we had to go to some empty appartment. I did photo’s there cause that is what I do best :p The idea is that we have to come up with an idea what to make from the appartment. Will it be an office… studenthouse or sth else.. I saw it and instantly fell in love. That apartment is exactly what I love in houses. Only thing I hated were the stairs. It was all old, dirty and rotten, but you can surely make sth beautiful of it. If I have the time to progress the photo’s I’ll post some!
Just gorgeous! Only thing I would need to have my dreamhouse complete is other stairs and a round window on the top level. Cause I love round windows! You know those big ones where you can spend hours in watching the view.
AND it is located in Rotterdam… AND you can park your car there… AND a great view on the river… between Erasmus bridge and Willembridge.
Let’s get rich soon!

I was shooting the gig from The Generators and The Damned in WATT.
Support was The Stealers.
Find all the galleries under concerts!

Skaguitar+Jaya the Cat galleries are online! find them under concerts!

Galleries from Fink and Ben Howard @ W2 Den Bosch are online! find them at the concerts.

See them at the portrait section!

Well yeah, that idea came up to me yesterday. My university is SHIT! Still not all marks are found and as it looks now… because of a software mistake I didnt do one subject, because it was not on my curriculum while it should have been there.

Anyway… all the missing marks and shit around this fucking failure university make me a bit depressed. Feeling like the last 5 years were for nothing… worthless. I actually got all my marks, but now I have to do some subjects again. I just want the diploma that I deserved. Ok I might not be the best student which fluently got all the marks, I know. But I was the student that always attended lessons, always tried again and again, but now my energy is totally gone.
I ve been checking some homestudies to see if there is any interesting study to from home, but all of them come with internships. and I never want to do that again. That just ain’t my thing, to be underpaid doing a job totally on my own and the boss claiming he can’t pay you more for the work because you cost them time as they have to look after you. Which they don’t do, or maybe once or twice to find out I can work indepently and then never check on me again.

We’ll see what happens next then.

For now, I focus on the extra assignment I have to do because of a disagreement about the right mark. *sight*

I did some self portraits in Soesterberg. I loved this spot and had an amazing idea to shoot here with someone. But then I found an even better place for that, so I wanted to use this one for now. And this was spontaneously so noone else was available but me. I did not quite make a serie of it, some differences in editting are there., but hey… let’s keep it fun heh ;)

Things are quiet here. have not done much gigs lately but it wil start again soon. I will upload my calender soon!
Parents are back from holidays and on Friday I got a message that because the administration of my uni is a mess they decide to give me advance of doubt. JEEJ. so I had two days to study for sth you normally do in 10 weeks. Well, we’ll see what comes from it.
Other than that I ve done some analogue photo’s and I updated my flickr account. I will probably put some random shots on there that won’t fit in my gallery, as well as a couple of my fave concert photo’s for the sake of having sth on there that represents me.

Im currently trying to find a good photoservice in my neighbourhood. First film I had developed was at HEMA. just an ordinary 36mm that came out of my plastic fantastic Diana f+. Well… my negatives came back broken, fixed with stickers on it. So for the next badge of full films I brought them to Ben Romp in Utrecht. 6 days later I came to pick up the photo’s!!! guess what: my 120 film was not developed squarish as it should have been but on 10X15. WTF?! Also my instamatic film did not even return yet. I could come back for that on friday which is 10 days after I brought it there. Then I had 2 color 36mm which came out badly. The cd I wanted them on has a lot of grey images, while the actual photo is good. WTF?! and I had one black and white 36mm of which I only got the negatives. No prints. WTF? then they blame me that I didnt say I wanted them printed… and they thought I would do it in my own doka. WTF?!
1. I want everything printed, I ve said that a couple of times!
2. What is the point in bringing the film there if I want to develop them myself in my own doka?! Then I could do everything myself huh?!

so Friday I can pick up the rest. Hopefully. I guess I have to get a darkroom somehow, since it seems impossible to give anything out of hands these days. Unless one of you readers can tell me a store that develops photo’s themselve, not send them to a central point to get developed in the area Utrecht, Amersfoort, Soest or Zeist. Im not happy to get even more photo’s ruined by some fucking assholes again.

And here I have one random shot I took in Rotterdam last week. I hope you like the doom over Rotterdam!:

Doom over Rotterdam